Love and Death ( for a second time) by Max Wallace and Ian Halperin

         I'm currently reading the book " Love and Death" by Max Wallace and Ian Halperin. This is about the tales and history of the death of a famous signer during the 90's of the band Nirvana, Kurt Cobain. Cobain had a very stressful and hurtful childhood getting along with his parents and actually having a childhood. But his signing helped him reach the charts and find his future wife. His life with his wife wasn't easy either. Courtney Love bothered him till the end of his life, even after their daughter Frances was born. He was said by officials that he committed suicide, leaving his suicidal note behind with a gun.
       I'm very skeptical and think its a murder, but it can also be a suicide. Cobain's life itself is pretty sad. You can find the way of his life in the lyrics. You have to read in between the lyrics. Also, " the suicidal note" says in the bottom :

"Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.

For her life, which will be so much happier without me.

I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!"

I feel these words were the strongest words he has ever said in his lifetime. Cobain is looking out for his daughter, not his wife. His daughter is gave him a another part of his life that made him happy. "For HER life, which will be so much happier without me". Cobain is putting his daughter's life before him. That proves that his child changed his life. He even went to a drug rehab center to recover after his child was born. Not to mention, he tried to keep things good with Courtney. Frances gave him this reborn spirit that boosted up his day.
         What led him push his limits? Was it the facts that he couldn't do drugs because of his daughter that he had to come past it one day or another? Maybe he couldn't recover quite well. He got tried of not doing drugs for such a long time that exceeded his limits to the end.  Or it could be the facts that his life wasn't that happy and though that Frances life would be better without him. Maybe he didn't want her to find out about his earlier life and didn't want her to have a childhood where the parents fight. Cobain was a smart guy, he knew what would happen next. It's like he was his own future teller. 
        "Not a proof ,of suicide." Well if its not a proof of suicide, and its not a of murder, what is it? The book makes its thoughts goes around and around. His Grandfather is sure that it was a murder. While Love thinks its a suicide. 
       I mean it could be a considered a murder because the door to his mansion was unlocked. The murderer could have easily gotten in and out the house. I think if they could have found just one more piece of evidence, they could figure it out. I mean the death of 1989, the ( NCIS) convinced the parents of Marine Digman that he committed suicide. However the gunshot was found in the left side of his head instead of the right, since he was a righty. Until then, it was proved as a murder. So if just one piece was found, I'm pretty sure things would be more clear. 
        All and all, I think that if researchers found a bit more evidence, then things would clear up. Only if someone knew what was happening that his direct moment. One small thing that is right in front of the faces of people is sticking out, but people just doesn't realize it. Even one small thing like he was lefty or righty could help solve the case. They had to just look deeper, further. I still don't think its a suicide. "Who killed Kurt Cobain". 

Love and Death By Max Wallace and Ian Halperin

        I’m currently reading the book Love and Death by Max Wallace and Ian Halperin. This book is a non-fiction book on the so called suicide of Kurt Cobain, a popular musician in the early 1990’s. Cobain was the lead singer of the band Nirvana. His band mates were Krist Novoselic and Dave Grohl 

       April 5^th, 1994 Cobain committed suicide in house in Seattle. He was found dead on April 8^th, 1994. Before the death, he attempted suicide, have been on a high dose of drugs, and had alcohol problems. His wife, Courtney Love fell in love together at a concert. Both of them had many similarities, and bonded very well. Both of them had troubled childhoods, not to mention family and mothers who did not take care to them. “Rather be dead than cool”, said Cobain. Sometimes, when his mother kicked him out of the house, he lived in his friends place, and his music started there. But then how long can he actually live at friends place? So he sometimes spent his night under a bridge over the Wishkah River. His music most of time was influenced by his life. Cobain influenced gunge music in many well know bands today.

      Cobain’s wife, Love seems like she negatively influenced Kurt.  I mean according to her last husband “I would have ended up just like Kurt, with a gun down my throat”.  Both Love and Cobain came from families where divorce was a huge factor. It affected them both. It hit them hard like rock. Maybe divorce was coming toward their way.  But then their child, Frances Bean Cobain was born on August 18^th, 1992. Over time, after Frances was born, their relationship stronger than ever. Courtney wanted her life to also go in the grunge-punk rock stage after the baby.

      It wasn't long before Courtney tried to convince Kurt to start a new band without one of his members. But is Nirvana really without the real 3? Lynn Hirschberg was a journalist that recorded that Courtney took drugs when she was pregnant. Other writers like Victoria Clarke also found out this fact. Courtney threatened Clarke by leaving messages. Not to mention Kurt also did that. Because that fact would hurt Kurt so much in this career.  Even today, she created a song called “Bring Me the Head of Lynn Hirschberg”.  

        The book puts Courtney in a position of a lady that was really rude, unsupported, and mean about her husband. But according to the people and family interviewed, they also had similar thoughts about Courtney.  Cobain’s grandfather, Leland Cobain; quoted “Courtney was going out to a club or bar or something and she wanted Kurt to come with her, but he just wanted to stay home and play with the baby.” Cobain’s mother, Wendy; said He's probably going to end up dead and in the stupid club." "I said if he ever lived to be 30, I'd be surprised.” However, as his fame continued, his mother supported him and even took pride in his work. The first time he attempted suicide, it was all over the news. As Love and Cobain were in the ambulance, she had perfect makeup on for the newscast. “ I wish I never married him” she said.

       Kurt lived to be 27. He made American History. His music even beat The Beatles. Most people believe that this was a suicide. While others are skeptical and still believes it’s a killing. But I don't believe it's a suicide and still thinking “Who killed Kurt Cobain?”